!!!!!!

pisssss! with the overwhelming amount of work already for the 1st day of school, she has to nag nag nag! I wish I wasn't the eldest. MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DROP OUT OF SCHOOL SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO WASTE MONEY ON ME!

Can't wait to live away from them!

CHERRY CULTURE SALE!

Just got this through my email

IT INCLUDES FREE S/H on any order! 

also ends 5/15

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all those wonderful hardworking mothers! I went with the family to "yum cha", a chinese breakfast at a restaurant. I rarely go and yum cha because I just don't like it but today my mom wanted to go so I went. She got her gift the beginning of the week but today again she got something else! I went to the huge sample sale @ Metropolitian Pavillion and grab a bunch of skincare stuff for the fam and friends and moi! 50%-90% off plus an extra 30% the last 3 days. Haul on that later.

I want to review thefaceshop mask that I mentioned in my last post. 

I went to the store in Flushing, Queens and it's hidden in an allenway so you gotta actually look for it. It was a pretty small store and I wasn't really specially looking for anything except fo the shishem lashes. So i wander over to the mask sheet section and boy did they have a lot of sheets! The girl at the counter recommened me the Vita-E Mask Sheet the Vita-A Mask Sheet. She told me to use two sheets of each every 2 days to see how I liked it. To make an even $10 for credit card usage, I got the Fresh fruit aloe mask sheet.

Vita E sheet-

Nourishing, Moisturizing 
Vitamin E --> floods the skin with lavish moisture helps fight oxidation and protects skin cells against sun damage.

Vita A sheet-

Firming 
Vitamin A --> firms the skin and accelerates skin cell turnover to reduce the appearance of wrinkles helps revitalize and optimize skin’s firmness.

Fruit mask sheet-

Aloe soothes and heals damaged skin. Great for sun burn skin irritation.

I love both the Vita sheets. They come in a very moist pack and I did feel my skin to soften and all. When I took the sheet out of the bag, it was all wet and goeyish cause of all the extracts on the mask. I didn't really like how it had a sligh alcohol smell to it =[ Overall I like it and I think i will continue to use it. I haven't tried the ALOE one yet but I can't wait cause its ALOE =)

ON THE SHISHEM LASHES! 

After reading about them from various bloggers, I had to go and get them! I found it at a beauty supply store near thefaceshop store. Got 3 pair and I likeeeeee them! I still need to get use to it. They are around $3.50 -$4.00 for a pair  and comes with 2 sets of glue so its cheap yet durable =)

Here I am wearing the SF ones!  Sorry I don't have picks of the lashes in the box but just google it and you'll know how they look =)

My skin has been breaking out so I'll post later on all the shit load of stuff I've been using to get rid of it!

might go to Mohegan Sun w/ the `rent tom. can't wait!

xoxo

Helen

SEPHORA SPLURGE

As I said in my last post, I got some goodies from Sephora!

I got the Stila My Mother, My Hero($38) combination set and Nars blush in Taos ($25). With the purchase I got 11 samples! ;]

Stila set:

- 0.17 oz Baked Eye Shadow Trio in Gold (gold, bronze, ivory)
- 0.32 oz Illuminating Finishing Powder in Bronze (bronze shimmer)
- 0.13 oz Lip Color in Natalie (a perfect plum)
- 0.15 oz Lash Visor Waterproof Mascara in Black
- Gold Linen Clutch

I love the whole set! The eye shadow trio wasn't anything new because the color can be substituted with some of my colors from the 120 palette. But I do like the gold! they really make it glowy haha LOVE the mascara! It hold my curls to a point but not all the way. And when I applied it, it felt so sturdy and just right! I've never felt a mascara applied on so good! I bascially got this kit for the clutch LOL I can't wait to use it during the summer! It can fit my camera, phone, money, keys! perfecttttt ;]

Now, I've never own any nars product so Taos is my first and omg it's so pigmented! It's absolutely a gorgeous color! It's a rosey color and oh so pretty =)

I'm so happy I order it and because I got a hefty amount of samples lol. Most of them are organic lines. THE BENEFIT BADGAL LASH mascara is not good at all! don't get it!

Faceshop on mask/fakelashes post next =)

Mascaras

It was Monday and I was on my way home, on the train, from school, I glance over to the asian lady sitting across from me and I couldn't keep my eyes off her for the entire ride. Why? She took out a walkman! A bright yellow sony walkman! I really couldn't help but stare at her. I know it's not right but I notice I was looking around to see if any beside myself saw what I saw. Everyone seem too occupied to notice but I know this girl next to her noticed also and she too couldn't stop glancing at the walkman once in a while whenever the lady took it out to stop/play/FF, whatever it is lol She even flip it open to change the cassettes! Oh boy I felt embarass for her but she didn't seem to mind at all doing that haha She look like one those ladies who use to do Chinese opera and stuff. But walkman?! thats like 10 years ago.

Anyways, I got some mascaras/nail art pens couple of weeks ago from CVS BOGO sale.

As you can see in the pic, they are Maybellines and Rimmel. I don't like them! They definitely lengthen! But there wasn't really much volume and most of all they did not hold my curls! pooey! But I guess once I master my false lashes, it doesn't matter if I have a mascara that can hold my curls hehe So for now my fav. is still CC lastblast!

Beside those, I got two of the Sally's nail art pens and I LOVE THEM! too bad the black and other colors ran out! =( It's very easy to use, just push it onto the nails and decorate. You def. have to wait a bit and put a top coat or they can easily come off.

My Sephora haul (nars and stila) should be here tom. so post on them next! CAN'T WAIT! ;]

BIG BANG

This is my 2nd post in a day!

I just have to let it out! I was browsing perezhilton and I can't believe what I saw on their playlist on the sidebar!

http://perezhilton.com/tv/index.php?ptvid=78288337e2ea2

that's right the korean group BigBang newest digital single "lollipop" feat. 2ne1, YG newest girl band!
First there was Boa, now there's BigBang!

I'm really happy to see that Korean music is starting to flow into the U.S. !

Enjoy the vid! I love the song haha it gets stuck in my head now and I love how colorful and retro the mv is =)

New Layout + Mitsuwa

how is the layout ? Gave it flavor haha credits to whoever the pictures belong to! I wanted a pink/purple look with white background but I found this cute cig pic with hearts on it so I tried to blend the colors to the colors of the pics. I sorta like it =]

So it's spring break for the kids meaning I don't have to work! This is more like my spring break also because I'm not going out. Just going to stay home and enjoy myself. Most of the days I'll be finishing all the homeworks that are due for the last few weeks of school. I just can't wait for it to be over! This just means that summer is right around the corner! time to shave and go short short short! ^^

So last week I went to Mitsuwa because of this strawberry fair they had. Before I went, I went to the national college fair at Javis center to talk to London Met. It was interesting and I really want to go to London but it really depends on my parents. My other options are Florida or stay here in NY! ={

But anywhoo, so i went to mitsuwa and the strawberyr fair wasn't really a fair at all! It was just a table fill with strawberry goodies and thats about it. I did get a few goodies so here's my haul!

The oreos wasn't as great as I expected! and the pocky just wasn't worth it! there are 9 packs and each only contain 7 sticks! it was for $5 I believe =[ I did enjoy the crunkly, mochi and tamagcookies! I LOVE THE COOKIE!!!<3>
Here's the whole lot! the noodles was really something new lol. It got the wasabi flavor going on which I wasn't too keen on. OMG the curry is freaking delicious! not too spicy just perfect for me!

Mascara haul next post!

TOPSHOP

Today was the launch of the UK store : TOPSHOP. I had to go because I got one of the bags from the heartschallenger vans with the giftcard to be use only on the day of the opening! sucks right? So I figure I would go one hour early to line up IN FRONT so I could see Kate Moss launch the shop! BUT DAMN! I got there around 10:15 and the line was around the block! I think I was in in the hundreds maybe less but definitely not over 100 so I got in around 11:30. There was lots and lots of cameras and camcorders and whatnot, press and everything.

While on line, staffs were giving out pinkberry samples, donuts, the van's bag, gc (for those who haven't got one), cookies and I believe there was free starbucks or coffee. They also went around scanning the gc to tell you the amount on it. THIS I LIKE hehe ;)

I really like how it was organize. They didn't let everyone go in at once like a freaking stampede! They only allowed 50 ppl in every 9 minutes so it would be less hectic. There was a lot of people but you can easy navigate around without anyone really pushing you or getting in your way.

The place is freaking huge! 4 floors including the basement which is the topman (mens wear). There was even a DJ area, a little style lounge area to sit at, nice dressing rooms and enough room for a hairdo stylist area, a manicure area, and makeover area. It feels likes a dream come true closet but hidden in it, is your very own manicure/hair/makeup section! BUT the free hairdo/manicure/makeover last only till sunday! =[ SO GO WHILE IT LAST! you gotta sign up and the wait can be and hour to 2!
Nails:Valley
Hairdo: Woodly & Bunny
Makeover: MAKEUPFOREVER!<333

It seems very like H&M with the exception of the leather and silk part which I think is the right pricing but eevrything else is really over price for someone like me who is use to shopping @ H&M/forever21/AE/AF (clearance). MOST PIECES are at least $40. The Accessories are from $20+ . I spent $109 w/ the $5 gc today on 5 pieces :
aviators : $30
earrings: $18
tanks: 2 for $18 (this was the cheapest deal I've found!)
jeans legging: $44

I don't have nice pics of the place cause most are taken from my phone!



thats basically it! I was there from 10:15 - 1:45. I got the free manicure done and its so cute! you're allow to choose only grey,pink, or gold and the designated design on two finger only. There was a flower design (which i got with the grey base) pink w/ zebra stripes, and gold with somet gliterry design.

I'm going back on sat with a friend and I'm getting my makeover !!!

cook?

Definitely not one but I do like to cook things here and there. Thanks to Jane (love u dearest!) I have this 30 min. meal cook book and I'm loving it! I must say, buying the ingredients are hefty. I think I'm a much better baker than a cook haha. Anyways what's my favorite thing to cook? Definitely congee and pasta ^^ simple and easy =) Here are some of the things I cook though not much cause I don't take pics of everything I cook Congee I made from Itkman with Thai Pa thong Ko ( it's donuts but the taste is just like jaw yau gui)

I believe this was angel hair w/ some spices and added oregano at the end (which is not picture).
I think this is cheddar chowder soup! It's from the cookbook ;D
I had fun making this! It's sausage and chicken gumbo! sauce it over rice and you have a good meal!

Here's something I bake! It's strawberry cheesecake. I baked it for my friend, Jun, and it was actually my first time baking any cheesecake! He and Mike love it or at least they claim so haha I thought it was pretty good, thank you very much! ;]

Here's a few site where I get my recipe/inspiration from:

foodwishes.com/youtube account
Itkman
joyofbaking
allrecipe
aeriskitchen
maangchi
Ruenthaiforum

Proactiv Solution

I'm eating congee( will talk on next post) that I just made while my face is feeling refresh and smells so goood because of the green tea moisturizer.

So I got this proactiv offer in the alloy package that came to me about 3 weeks ago. It was for $19.99+$5.99 s/h for the three step solution, refining mask, and green tea moisturizer. I decided why not? I've been wanting to try it out for the longest time but because I'm not really acne prone and it was quite expensive, I put it off.

I receive the package last night after I came home from school! I was ecstatic because I was expecting it on friday, which was what customer service told me. It came in a package like this :




I tried it for the first time last night and the smell wasn't that bad at all. Many people complain about how bad the smell was but it wasn't strong enough for me to even notice it.

I like the cleanser because it have these small beads in it and I actually feel like its cleansing my face. The toner sort of give this stingy senstation on the areas where I have my pimples. The repairing lotion is liquity and after putting all three on my face my face feel tighten and sort of dry, but there wasn't any dry flakes or patches whatsoever. I only felt it for maybe a few minutes to 30?

This morning I cleanse my face and put on the toner then I dampen my face and put on the refining mask, which should be use 2-3 times a weel. I'll be using it once every week lol. I think I didn't put on enough because I only put on a thin layer and it isn't as thick and white like I've seen on youtube lol. However, it really tighten my face and my pores did seem to appear smaller. After I apply the green tea moisturizer because my face got so dry after the mask that dry patches were forming (this is actually normal for some). I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE GREEN TEA MOISTURIZER! It smells soooooooooooooooooooo goood! and it does moisturize, my dry patches went away. It is such a small tube though =[ I think I will have to invest in this.

I am disappointed because the three step solutions weren't full size. They were like 1 oz. and 2 oz. I believe the full size are probably 4 oz. +. For the price, its not bad. I only plan on using this one time to see how well my skin adapt to it.

Overrall, I can't say it's working because I've only use it once but it does look promising. My skin isn't breaking out yet so I'll continue it and keep an update on it!

Chinese Weddings

I decided to not go. I realize I just hate these type of gathering, scratch that, socializing. I don't even know the groom and bride as well as 3/4 of the people there. All these people around the designated table for my family will be talking about school and just yap yap yap. You get it right? the updates on life, how bad the kids are doing, comparing the kids, did I mention comparing of the kids?! I guess the only good thing about this are the foods.

The dinner starts at 6. It's 7:31 now. I just hate when people are late. I mean if its once in a while for a casual meeting, then that's fine, but god damn it, its a wedding event!

So my dad was promise a ride from this "friend" and well he's freaking late! Then we have the other friend relative who is willing to drive him there because they so happen to be going to the wedding also, so why didn't he take the offer? Because he promise the other friend first. Gosh, if you knew the type of work the friend does and that he is in Staten Island, why did you promise him in the first place! It's not hard to call the dude and kindly reject his offer! and the worst part? the dude didn't even call to say he's running late! He finally calls and by the time they get there, it'll be 830-9. What's the point. Gosh.

I'm glad I didn't go.

Mature

I can't say how much more I have mature but I know I've gain that much to realize what I am doing and what I have to do.

So the previous post was some real venting but I would like to take a step back because I felt a bit of guilt. In my last post, I sound like I was blaming my parents especially my father for the life I am living now. But recently I have realize that they are doing this for my brother and I. They just did it the wrong way and that doesn't lessen their love for us. I was actually thinking that I was proud of them because they thought of us before them. I mean com'n which parent doesn't put their child before them ? But when my father told me that the main reason why we came over here was because of my brother's asthma, my heart sunk and my disappointment was elevated. It's true I guess, that Asian parents prefer a son rather than a daughter. But then again, they would do the same thing for me if I was the one with a sickness. I can only go back to when I was little and sick. I remember it was in the middle of the night and I was in pain but couldn't sleep but my dad cradle me in his arms until I would fall asleep. I always use that to relieve myself whenever I feel angry. I know my dad and mom and doing all they can to provide the fam. with a living expense and whenever I see their faces, it just pains me but I really can't express it to them because well that how I am and I've been used to it ( not expressing my care for them). Which I know I should change but I can't. Maybe in the future. It doesn't lessen my love for them either. But I'll try working on it, really, I will. I'm going to be fucking 21 already and I need to show them that i can do well on my own and I really want them to be in retirement, living the rest of their life in paradise.

This past week have been really hectic because I've come to find out my situation has no hope. So I went to an attorney and well he just told me to continue my education and find out the info from the london univ. I am interested in and see him in May again. This leads to my main point of my post. My dad don't like the idea of me going off to another country all by myself and well if I go to london then there is no point in them staying in NY and I don't want them to relocate and start the same situation all over again just this time I'll probably be better off. And I don't want them to stay in NY and work hard because my brother is just not doing his best in school (not even a C avg.) so their hopes in him for the future is very dim and it will be only ME supporting them.

Today I finally got my certificate from school for being on the president's list ( I got a 4.0 gpa ) and my dad finally recognize the fact that I got all A's. He goes and asked me what I want as a reward from him. He asked if I want an I-pod? I-phone? because I don't have one due to the fact of my 10% hearing loss I tend to stay away from listening to them and don't ever want to go clubbing again. Sad, I know. When he asked, i felt bad because I was expecting to be happy, though I was kind of satisfied b/c he finally wanted to spoiled me for once, but I was sad because I felt bad, I had to do this just to get a reward from him but my brother doesn't need to do much to get his jackets, his mp3 and whatnot. It hit me when he said why all boys in the Yu family are so disgrateful and why only the females are doing the better. The boys (my cousins and brother) were well off when they were little but as they grow older, it gets worst and they just end up the total opposite. I never want my father's pride to be hurt. Never. and I don't want them to spend another dime on me with the exception of college tuition. I even now rather walk to work so my mom can use the metro and not have to walk home so late at night.

I simply told him, I don't want anything. I have already rewarded myself with a bunch of shopping. He goes it better be useful. I was considering asking him in getting the asus pc eee 900HA so portable and just what I need to kill time during my gap in school! But I stop. Then again why not use that $300 for some expenses in london ?! yea I have to think smart and save.

Today I had to use the metro to give my friend something and it was my fault for not telling him so he came out of the station and well I had to go in and wait for him. He came and I'm waiting and hes waiting and I feel that he feels I am angry and frustrated and is in a rush. Just looking at him standing there waiting with that face and trying to see if he can spot a friend who could swipe him in make me really sad. thinking and typing this makes me want to tear. I realize how old he has gotten and I shouldn't let him feel ashamed. I really don't want them to feel guilty and sad because of the life their children are in. Sigh, again I guess I should really start working on expressing my feelings and how happy I am. THIS REALLY FRUSTRATE ME! ALL I WANT IS FOR US TO BE HAPPY.

I love my parents and I felt bad for blaming them in my last post. I will never again do that.

Gosh, I really am not the type to stay the way I feel. I always end up feeling guilty. This goes even towards my friends and work life, I just can't be the unhappy with people, I always want everyone around me to feel happy because then I don't feel the burden and then will I only feel comfortable and truly happy because well in the end nothing is bothering me nor do I have to feel guilty or pity.

SAD

today was going quite fine. Woke up, ate, finish my discussion question, finish my accounting homework. Now it is 8:30 pm. 30 minutes ago the Oscars started and I've been wanting to watch it since yesterday. I did not watch tv all day but tried to finish whatever assignment I was left with. Comes the Oscars and my FATHER apparently isn't watching any of his chinese series so I ask him to turn to the channel I wanted. HE goes, "what are you doing? You have the computer and your doing hw( I have a txt book out) and now you want to watch the tv? YOU WON"T GET ANYTHING DONE" I simply ignore him and just said turn the channel. He got so mad and shut of the channels and decided to watch his chinese series on the DVD. He said this in chinese " I always give it your way, We (mom and dad) work all day, cook and clean, I just want my own time". EXCUSE ME!? Just before, ever since the afternoon, all he had watch was his fucking series.

Now I just have to let this all out. This life I am living now is not what I ASK for. Every time I think of it, I cry because to me, this is very unfair. IF they want to complain how hard they are working for us they should have never made the decision to ever come here and once they do they should DO EVERYTHING that can possible can to make it more easier for the FAMILY. PLAN AHEAD! DO NOT GO DRIVING ON THE ROAD KNOWING THERE IS A DEAD END. I RATHER THEM DRIVE TO THE END AND HAVE US ALL KILL IF I KNEW THE LIFE THAT WAS AHEAD OF US! I want to be like everyone else but I can't and I don't know WHEN I can. They always say " all i want is for you to be good in school and graduate from college" OK then fucking mean that! I'm doing what I'm doing ! IM IN FUCKING COLLEGE and you know what ?!?! I GOT A 4.0 GPA LAST SEMESTER! what did my dad say ? " really ? thats good!" THEN he just goes off asking my brother how he is doing and if he is getting straight As like me. MY BROTHER ALWAYS CUT SCHOOL and doesn't even have C average in HS!! BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? He treats my brother BETTER THAN ME! whenever he comes home late, he doesn't get really mad or yell loudly! He always goes out with his friends to play basketball and shit, BUT WHAT DO I GET ? why are you out so late!! Why you always go out! and recently all i get is thats good! in regards to my GPA! WHAT THE FUCK ! TALK ABOUT FATHERS WHO LIKE SONS MORE THAN DAUGHTERS! TONIGHT just got even more piss. ALWAYS saying how he gives in to my ways. SHUT THE FUCK UP OK!

ALL I WANT NOW IS TO MOVE TO EUROPE AWAY FROM THEM WITHOUT THEM HAVING TO NAG AND GET ME UPSET AND JUST LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND!

IM turning 21 in 4 months and I don't even know what to think. ALL I DO NOW IS IGNORE THEM. WHY ? BECAUSE TEHRE IS NO POINT IN LETTING KNOW WHAT I THINK! THEY WONT UNDERSTAND! THEY ONLY THINK THEY ARE THE RIGHT ONES JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE OLDER AND HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT TO UNDERSTAND HOW LIFE IS. THAT IS BULLSHIT!

I DONT KNOW WHY I WAS BORN IN THIS WORLD!